What am I holding onto that no longer supports the woman I am becoming?
I decided to let go of past mistakes and the belief that everything has to be perfect.
My healing journey is not always peachy and life is not always peachy either. Perfection does not exist. Life has been my greatest teacher if I am being honest. I no longer say what I would never do because I have learned that you do not truly know what you would do until you are in certain situations.
I am learning to trust God more and to let life unfold as it will. I focus on what is within my control and trust that God has everything else in His control and that it will work out the way it is meant to. Worry has never changed an outcome or sped anything up so I am choosing to release it.
I am a woman with many layers. How I show up depends on what is happening in my life and around me. I am letting go of the need to present myself as someone other than who I truly am. I have learned to love Chelsea, all of her. I am finding peace in being myself and embracing my silly nature without apology.
I am also letting go of the need to be a perfect mother. I can love being a mother and still dislike certain aspects of motherhood. I can love my daughter and still find moments challenging. I can cherish our time together and still desire time for myself. I can embrace my version of motherhood while mourning what I once thought it would look like. I do not need to mother like anyone else. I just need to mother my way.
Life is hard. It was designed that way. We have to stop allowing our circumstances to rob us of the beauty that life and motherhood still offer. You cannot become your best self while holding tightly to an old version of yourself.
Let go.
Trust God.
Trust yourself.
Create a life you do not have to hide from.
You owe it to the girl in you, your children, and yourself.
With Love,
XoXo
Chels
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